Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Long time

Woah! Been a while since i wrote any crap in here!
Well its all the pre-wedding jitters... Alright so m bloody scared!And so is my fiance...

As he puts it, the attention and the elaborate ceremonies are terrifying him... I guess its the same with me... Hell, I told my parents that register marriage was fine..

Oh god, suddenly the thought that we have to bear (ya not bare, baring is fine! :P) each other for all 24 hours... well not exact for we will sleep, peacefully? maybe? I want the cozy bed for myself! WAAH!

Holy shit, is pre-wedding jitters this bad? The responsibilities..
ah i will have to cook! And i dont know to cook properly... I can only make up stuff which given the time to rush to office wont be good...

The relatives! Staying at my in-laws place for sometime... alright... m freaking out...

You know whenever you are out to stay at some relatives' place, it's always a problem to know where to dry your inner wears or maybe dispose the sanitary pads for a gal or a guy with some strange problem...

Hell, I dunno y i wrote that above para... but it holds true.... even excretory processes are going to be uncomfortable!

Did anyone consider this before their wedding or am I the only one?

In about another month, my marriage is up... Forget cold feet, I'm frozen!!!!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Art of Writing!

I've always wanted to write, write well, ...no... better... maybe the best!
But I lack the ability to play around with words. Different synonyms and beautiful "dictionarized" words! Now thats not a word, but it sounds cool.. U get what I mean? But of course, m not talking about made-up words...

Somehow it seems uneasy... it seems as if I know it but I just can't get it...I have had countless dreams where I can hear myself deliver fabulous speeches or write a great document.. and they were brilliant!

So then how is it that my sub-conscious mind knows about all this and I don't?

I even went through some of my old documents, random scripts and fan fictions.. They seemed good for a beginner... But instead of becoming better, I'm lost...

Its even harder to learn when you know it already...
I do not know what has caused this to happen? Maybe my self-confidence is lost... I've too much stress... but I do not want to take them as excuses!

I want to write, write and write better. I don't want to ask anyone if they find it good.. I should know it myself!

Why can't I just get out that what's deep inside me!? I need to master the Art of Writing!

Monday, August 10, 2009

Swine Flu - General Awareness

So swine flu has reached navi mumbai now. 2 cases in nerul.
Our company HR gave 2 surgical masks per employee and advised us to use them in crowded areas.
My sister also got few masks from her company. Since my sister happened to come to Raghuleela mall; she, me and my fiancé all were homebound together and all three of us wore masks to avoid contracting the disease in fear of it affecting my 6 month old nephew.

Later me n my fiancé had to buy some stuff from D-Mart and so we got down there. Few people threw glares at us. But overall everyone was comfortable seeing us in masks. I saw a lot of ppl with handkerchief masks, while a family had put on the cloth mask for their kids.

Now's where the fun thing happened.After purchase, we had to take an auto to home and I went to a rickshaw driver and said .."bhaiyya sector 4....."

"Nahi!!!!!", was his answer and he literally turned his auto and ran away!!!

God, we had a good laugh and later while we were heading home in another rick with a sensible driver, I was just wondering about the general public's awareness.

Most educated ppl are getting their awareness right, but what about these guys? They are prone to risk with so many ppl travelling in and out of their autos...

It is even said that "It is advisable to wear three-layer mask in public places as part of precautionary actions apart from the other preventive measures."

And if one can act on their common sense, they would've known that a person affected with swine flu would not come to D-mart for shopping!. He or she will be bed-ridden

What is the govt gonna do abt spreading awareness to these ppl?
Why doesn't it make it compulsory to wear masks so as to minimize the risk?

I even read an article where it says not to wear mask until infected... But then, seriously, if this virus can spread by just a sneeze, then y the hell would I not want to wear a mask.
However, I have a feeling that they referred to the N-95 Mask and not the surgical or cloth mask.

Anyways, I think we will see a lot of ppl with masks on the roads in the next few days.

I hope this damn thing gets over soon!
God Bless and good health to all.

Monday, August 3, 2009

A Snoring Dream

Hmmm... So everyone in my family except me is blessed with the gift of snoring. Me, the unfortunate one can't snore and hence can't stand the others snoring next to me and hence can't sleep!

I sometimes used to wonder how peacefully they slept, while besides the snoring, the paper fluttering or the door's slight banging, or any small sound bothers me so much till i fall into deep slumber.

Once i tried to snore rather act it out and i realized that your own snoring sound can be heard by u from the inside with a great echo effect that no other sounds matter...
Also u can tune it to a rhythm u want... ok so this maybe weird, i try to find rhythm in these sounds so that i can expect them in the same pattern and get used to it and find some sleep...

On on the whole, because of the snoring, I couldn't sleep for a good two hours last night. Hence this post.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Bomb Scare @ Raghuleela Mall

Our office is in the 11th floor of the IT park behind raghuleela mall...
Yesterday, i came, started my PC, was browsing the net... and right when i thought i will go pick up something from the canteen, than ma friend called and said.. "Don't panic, just get everyone and come down"

Now, "Don't panic" is usually panicky!
We didn't know what to do... Soon enough our HR head repeated the same words... and off we went... All this while, we were thinking it was a fire drill.. So we even took the stairs!

Few workers on the 6th floor had no clue what was happening and they were asking us! So we were going down and down the stairs slowly... Ya no stampede as no one knew what the whole thing was about... My fiancé was nicely drinking his coffee on his way down..Heh...

So we got down and learnt that it was a bomb scare.... Best part was that people were gathered right next to the building.. What's the point??

And then it rained... and guess what, ppl headed back to the building for shelter! It was funny....

The security guards had no clue what was going on.. Terribly mismanaged ppl! Our company heads and employees were taking the initiatives to get ppl to a safe distance..

Finally after few hours, it was declared off for the day and most of us left home... After another few hours of scanning (its a 16 storey building!), the bomb squad returned empty handed! Hoax call!

And later I read from here http://www.mid-day.com/news/2009/jul/170709-bomb-scare-Vashi-Twitter-Raghuleela-Mall-Vishwaroop-Park.htm,

that the news they received was the bomb was gonna detonate in 20 minutes! Now, if that bomb was there for real, then I would've been alive to write this post.... Coz i think we all reached the ground floor only by then or later maybe!!

And ppl were being let inside the mall. Only the It park was blocked... Communication gap..

If it really was a 20 minutes timeline, then most of us would've been dead by now!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

And she walks and she walks.....

<This is very much incomplete... will have phrases and a mixture of dialect... and I haven't even read it through again... so before u go ahead, it may not be in the perfect flow...  >

The prettiest thing on earth, the gifted being, the blessed one...
It was the day she was born....

The pride of many, the envy of others....
They wished to hold her, to touch her, to catch a glimpse of her...

She grew...yet very young...

Studies came to her easily. She could sing, she could dance, she could draw.... She was talented beyond limits... She was generous, kind, down to earth, simple.... the perfect soul....

Her life was full of happiness that she shared with others.... others' sorrows which she considered her own... she loved everyone...the innocent girl.... and she was loved.

And then he came... acting as her protector, her well wisher... who longed for her tenderness and nothing else..
She trusted, for so young was she... and soon she realized her folly...

But she had lost what she didn't even know, afraid to confess and following a stranger's path, she walked and she walked and she walked...



She felt caged, captured, alone... As fate was on her side, she flew away into another world, different from what she was accustomed to....

She wanted her freedom, she wanted to be loved... but what did the new world offer her... abuses, negligence, hatred.... she didn't want to live... her perfect world was long since torn apart and the new world where she expected a new beginning was turning sore....

Save for a few good souls, she sustained, wanted to strike back with all force and she was getting over her worries than there came few who wanted to taste her warmth...

She struggled and ran... she wanted to be away... far away from these lewd lords, for they were like a father to her... and yet their lustful eyes feeding on her meat...

She couldn't bear the pain... She fought, she won, she flew into yet another world.... and there in search of a pure soul, she walked and she walked and she walked...


She was hesitant to talk, she was hesitant to do anything she loved, for hurt had she been from everything, the pain...oh too much to bear, for a young teen was she...

One unexpected dawn, a brave heart came to her, much did he long for her, for he truly loved her... Yes, she was loved again...

He took her pain away, he was all she had, oh she loved so dearly and yes he loved her heart... She taught him her ways of tolerance, he taught her to be brave...

His presence gave her strength, the strength gave her happiness.. His love restored her confidence, her faith...yes... yes.. she was in love...

She wanted to confess her past, but it was almost a forgotten tale.. and yes she feared....

They roamed, they loved, they talked, life was becoming perfect again...

But love does have a little lust... yes...but her troubled mind couldn't make out the difference... She didn't feel his gentle touch.. Her lips never felt his warm kisses... For so traumatizing was her past...

Foolish girl, I should say, for she should have confessed... prior or then... but no, she didn't... she feared losing him... and poor he did not realize the pain he was giving her...

She felt it was her duty to abide... and him.. What has to be said....men are so... they cannot read a woman's face... and this young brave heart, young indeed was he!

And as if this wasn't doing any harm of its own......

As they say, a man is known by the company he keeps...

And soon, influenced by his fellow "well-wishers", the brave heart was confused, for he wanted her to do things his way.... He was possessive, obsessive.... he wanted her to give up everything for him.. She cried... she pleaded.. she advised him to believe in her and not other strangers... But what can I say, for fate is who I blame, for breaking apart two pure souls... Yes indeed its their folly... but a fate could change a lot of things and yet it thought to let this pass...

For he paid no heed to her... he wanted her... oh yes...but his doubts and fears overcame his true love... for he blamed her for every wrong, for he hated praises of her, but yet he loved her... oh a love that no one could imagine... but their damned fate.....

She was wounded, hurt even more than before for they were mere strangers and this was different... her trust was broken... her happiness shattered... she was in disbelief for she never even dreamt of this nightmare...

She cried, and when all her pleading was in vain, she broke and she went away... and there the brave heart lay grieving...

He tried to stop her, yes, he was repenting... oh but the unbearable pain and the rush of youth, would dare stop her... She left... she left in search of loneliness... to be far away into a world of unknowns... and there she walked and she walked and she walked....

Few came and went, for she thought she had nothing to lose... yet she suffered pain... and she longed for it... for she felt she deserved it.... she wanted to end her life...she wanted to be miserable...

But deep inside, she wanted a man who would love her true, who would not be influenced, who would treat her like a princess for she saw a lot of unworthy others being treated like one...

She had longed to be taken care of, to be loved, to be pampered, to feel like the precious thing on earth to a man...

But she knows her dreams will never be true, for so had others used her and left her with just pain and pain and more pain...

She accepted the pain so much that she craved for it... yes again and again... she made the little good things to bad and cried and oh lord... crazy was she turning....

And one day she stopped... she thought... the sun was setting... and she looked down and said.. "Even my shadow leaves me in the dark"....

Oh, how painful her heart might be says I... for "Who are you?" you may ask....
And I can proudly say that I'm the very shadow she mentioned... but little does she know that I watch her from the dark... It is she who cannot see me... I've been with her all her life, I have cried with her, laughed with her in her happier times, I was there always... but how could she know that... for that's how it was destined to be....

If I may wish, and if a wish fulfilled, oh lord... bless her a being for she has suffered enough... it wasn't her fault... bless her oh lord...

For I'm a shadow, i feel no pain, no happiness and yet I did...

I do not know if my prayers will be answered, for this wretched girl always faces misfortune...But yet, I'm there for her... till she lasts...till she walks...

And so I walk with her while she walks and she walks and she walks...

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Songs dedicated to ME!

Ok, I just thought I should compile a list of songs dedicated to me by my fiance, my ex-bfs and crushes....

Few gave multiple dedications too.. so don't relate the number to the people!

1. With or Without you - U2
2. Always a woman to me - Billy Joel (Two people!)
3. Angel - Lionel Ritchie
4. Reason - Hoobastank (Three people!)
4. Alive - Black eyed peas
5. Only fools rush in - UB40
6. Everything - Lifehouse
7. Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
8. Heavens - Bryan Adams
9. Please forgive me - Bryan Adams
10. Yellow - Coldplay
11. In these arms - Bon Jovi
12. She will be loved - Maroon5
13. With arms wide open - Creed


Thats all I can recall now..

Oh and one more.... which was not supposed to be a dedication.... still...

-> Hey you - The Quireboys


It actually makes a nice collection, I must say... I really like most of the songs!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Long Time!

Oh well.... Rapture has been keeping me so busy that I'vent had the time to visit my own blog!


And the spare time that i get, i end up playing mafia wars and poker on facebook... hehe
What to do? M addicted.

So, no it has got nothing to do with the fact that m engaged or anything!
And by the way I just got up... and I really have no clue what to write!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Was Akbar an idiot?

I was going through the Akbar & Birbal stories during my lunch time... And it just struck me that Akbar was a stupid king and without Birbal, he wouldn't have done anything right...

Or at least thats what the stories seem to tell people...

Now some say Akbar did such stupid things to test Birbal... (God, he really had no other work to do, eh?)
Also, i don't know how sentencing someone to death or denying someone his reward is "stupid things to test Birbal"

And then when u see the movie "Jodha Akbar", Akbar is some big shot smart fellow...

Now, m really confused which story to believe....

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Mulan

Alright, Mulan makes me cry!!
The ending is so touching!!

I love the movie... Sometimes i can so relate myself to it...
Ah... my eyes are filled with tears and i'm in office...

Ya was watching it on you tube...

Ok.. me off to the washroom to let the tears shed...

I just can't get enough of Mulan!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Dell launches DELLA!

Thanks to my women dev mailing list, I came across this:

So well… DELL came up with DELLA, a website showcasing their “cute” products targeting the women community.
But, unfortunately, DELLA has not gone well with the women…especially the tech tips

Some of the original snippets of the first DELLA site tech tips can be found here

Here, one of the DELL responsible tells us that after the feedback they made the tech tips more technical

And here’s DELLA’s tech tips – the updated ones!


My personal opinion on it: Please don't think anything small in size is cute and hence appealing only to women!

I'm ok with the color schemes etc, but the previous tech tips were ridiculous...
They could have at least tried making a special gallery for the tech-savy ones?
And split it as novice and expert users or so... It would have saved a lot of trouble...

Anyways, I'm pretty much happy with my EEEPC 904H! Alright so i rarely use it thanks to my working hours and my good desktop machine. But not complaining!

Just for the records, i bought a black colored one!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Flaw in saving numbers to your mobile phone

I just realized that the mobile phone treats the first three numbers as the same for any particular number which has the rest of the 7 numbers as the same?

Consider a number: 9821111111

If u change the 982 to any three digit combination, it still treats it as the same number (the latest phones inform if the number has been saved before… so u can notice it)

I noticed it yesterday when my while feeding data into my dad’s new phone and 2 of my dad’s friend’s had the same number except for the second digit...

Hmmm.....

I'm doing some research on it now...

Friday, May 15, 2009

From game designer to screen-play writer

U don't know what either of them is, then please use google :)

Well, my good friend, a smart girl and a great designer now changes her focus to screen-play writing...

She has always been of the experimental sorts. She traveled through advertising, copyrighting, game designing and now screen-play writing.
While I'm happy for her new found profession, i'm also sad that she is out of game-designing.

Now I hardly have anyone to discuss game-designing with.. now I'm left with just the mailing lists!!

Female game designers in India are scarce.

Monday, May 11, 2009

The only girl left!

So.. yes... by next week, i will be the only girl left in my studio...

When i joined here, we were 6 girls..

Then one was asked to leave... which left us 5...

Then a small merger happened which added 2 more girls...
Our count increased to 7!! Wow!

Then another one was asked to leave.
3 quit for personal reasons...

Which left three of us...
Now one, my good friend, left since she is getting married...

The second last one - the last one being me - is also leaving by the end of this week...

So that leaves just me.....
*Sigh*

Girls and gaming hardly last long here.... :(

Branded Mid Rise Jeans

Ah... so my boyfriend forced me to get this branded levis mid rise jeans....
he paid so m not complaining.... :P

I usually go for the local brands and end up buying these baggy pants... well they are pretty comfortable!!! so what if they look out of shape!! :-|


Coming back to the point, he got me this jeans and i wore it today... and for few hours i had a hard time adjusting to the mid rise... which seems more like a low rise to me...

Ya...m used to high rise jeans!

Now... m getting used to it... and well... it ain't looking as bad as i thought it would... hehe...

Looks like its high time i started acting girly.... but its a pain to do so!!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

XKCD Comic

This is one of my all time fav...



When this happened to me, I really wanted to slap the person hard... ok very hard... after i broke my head trying to find the third word and when he gave this stupid solution.....

This comic is for that guy!!!

Friday, April 10, 2009

Blah Blah

I don't know where to start off! I've so many things to write, thanks to my personal experience as well as inputs from my friends...

All of us must have seen how sucking up to your boss helps... You've seen the way they easily get promoted, respected and given authority...

Well... and then some of us are still unable to do it...

What happens if you don't?
Your promotions never happen or they are delayed.
Your talents or efficiency hardly gets appreciated.
You are made to feel outcasted..

And what if you are a girl?
Ha Ha! Screwed!!
You are not taken seriously.
They think you are brainless.
Whatever you try to do is ignorable!


Besides all this few of us girls still stay in this partial world trying to make a point every time and failing miserably at that...

Less efficient men get paid more... Taking on roles they are unable to handle.

Irrespective of having better qualities, we get sidelined... I'm pretty sure some of the guys will also agree with me on this point.

Only when dire necessity comes is when you're needed.. till then you're optional! You don't even know that such a project exists!!

We are all asses working our ass off all day only to get nothing in the end... No appreciation, No respect, No importance, No money either!!

And then you slog and slog with no time to blog!!!

Yet another

Ya, so this is yet another "blog" attempt...

Sometimes you get this urge to write so much and then realize that it might not fit your current blog profile or maybe it's too outdated...So you create a new one and like always you resolve to keep it alive and then eventually end up letting it die...

Well.. I'm not going to take that resolve... Instead I hope I write in this blog as less as possible.. because it is going to be filled with my rantings, my frustrations and more...

So the less I write in this - means my life is getting better!!

Or maybe not... Maybe it's because I'm overworked...
Or maybe i sometimes wanna right about some good stuff...

Oh well... m confused....

EDIT: Also, all the posts that are older than this are imported from my previous blog and merged here!
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